Miracles of the Season

Today was a day of miracles for me. I woke up this morning feeling full of anxiety and grief. I don't know for sure what brought it on. Probably something that I dreamed or that began emerging as I slept. So I had a choice of what to do with these feelings.

The first thing I did was to just observe them, how did they feel in my body. Was there a message I needed to hear? Was there something I was afraid of or something I was avoiding? I just allowed these thoughts to pass through my mind as I allowed myself to just feel the extent of the feelings.

I then did my morning meditation and prayer setting the intention that I would understand my feelings and receive the peace that was available. It was a long meditation, with a very definate root coming forward to my consciousness. At some point during this process I remembered there was a correspondence I received a couple of days ago that I did not want to open, so I set it aside and forgot about it. Well obviously my subconscious mind did not forget and processed the fear throughout the night.

I realized as I was meditating was how much my financial situation does concern me, even though consciously I have not allowed myself to live in fear and have not put a lot of energy towards thats, there must be a lot of old programming that is still be running in the background that I still need to work through. So I allowed myself just to go to gratitude and let myself feel what it will be like when I have the financial cushion I desire. It was a good feeling. I acknowledged the Lord in all things and allowed him to help me feel the peace that passeth all understanding. When I actually got up to start my day, I felt wonderful. I didn't know how things were going to work out, I just knew that they would and I truly could accept the angel's invitation to "fear not"

The first thing I did when I got up was to open the letter I had chosen to ignore and read its contents. I was fine with what I read and created a plan of action in my mind. I always find that when I am in avoidance, it is better to face it quickly rather than wait. Ignoring something I don't want to face usually ends up usually only makes things much worse. Once I make the decision to face things, I feel much better. I spent the rest of the morning doing other things I have been avoiding, like thoroughly cleaning my kitchen and removing the science experiments growing in my refrigerator. That was always a job Jeff did faithfully, so I haven't done it for years. I guess its another of those things I will have to take responsibility for now.

As I was cleaning, I even put on Bing Crosby's White Christmas and was enjoying my day very much, which was really a miracle considering how I felt when I woke up. It was just nice to know that I really can choose what to do with the feelings I have. I love just allowing myself to feel them so that I can observe and then decide what to do with them.

Later on in the afternoon I was the recipient of a large financial gift from a totally unexpected source. As I stared at the check, tears coursed down my cheeks and the feelings of gratitude I felt this morning were totally magnified. I saw it as a very tender mercy I was given this morning to listen to the message of the angels and choose to fear not. I was grateful I had not chosen to spend the entire holiday season in fear. I do not know how this whole thing works. I only know that when we allow ourselves to receive of the abundance of the universe, it finds us. I promised that by the time I teach my seminar in February, I will have some interesting stories to tell. I acknowlegde the hand of the Lord in all things.

So for me, this day has been a day of miracles, but then each day can be that way if we only allow ourselves to be open to seeing them. Tomorrow I am heading off to Arizona to spend some much needed R & R. I don't know how much I will be writing in the blog. It would be totally fine to take some time off, but I kind of enjoy having a rhythm. It seems to be about the only thing that I have right now that is a routine. I think it is good for me. But if I choose to not write for a few days, that would be ok too.

I love the miracles of the season. I love the generosity of amazing, unselfish people. I know that I want to be a part of creating miracles for others. It must feel awesome to make such a difference in someone's life. So thank you, thank you, thank you for each of you and how you are making a difference.

Life truly is a miracle isn't it? How I love sharing the joy as well as all the learning curves. But now I really must go to bed. I have a big day tomorrow, after all, I am celebrating Christmas!!! I told you there are still miracles.

Chris