Transitions

It has been interesting for me to make a conscious choice to step back from the traditional hustle and bustle of the season and just be a casual observer. I have been pleasantly surprised by what I have witnessed. For the most part, people have just been pleasant. But then I usually see most people as pleasant anyway. I did not notice frantic shoppers and disgruntled employees although I do have to admit the only public place I have actually been has been a couple of trips to Fred Meyers, so maybe there isn't that much data to go on, but I choose to believe that what I saw was a fair representation of the general spirit of the population.

But I also spent some time at my sister's house observing their preparations for the holidays. It was delightful. I loved the look on my brother-in-law's face as he was explaining to me the really cool gifts he found to put in the stockings of the men in the family. He was just so excited. He spent most of the afternoon putting more lights on the house even though it seems to be a little late in the season to put forth that kind of effort. When I asked my sister about it, she said, she wants to celebrate big time this year. I think the experience we all had with Jeff makes each moment and family gathering even that much more special. I loved being there. It did not change my position about Christmas, but it was nice to know that even though my little family is choosing something different, I can delight in others preparations.

As I talked with Charla about it last night, we discussed how much fun Christmas has been in the past. There were some traditions that carried over from my childhood which created delightful, fun memories. It was always truly the best time of year for us. But our family has changed. The year after Emily died was the first year since we were married that we did not make our traditional Rice Krispy wreaths and go caroling to our family and friends. It just didn't seem right to do it without her and we were fine in creating some new traditions that would help us remember her.

This year is a completely different kind of transition for our family. We can never go back and re-create what we once had. Perhaps that's one of the reasons why we are choosing to just by pass the season this year. The pain is still too fresh. I don't want to ruin Christmas forever by trying too hard to make it seem normal. Nothing we are experiencing as a family is normal. Perhaps next year we will feel more comfortable in the new creation of what our family is becoming. We can then decide what new types of memories and traditions we want to build. It can still be awesome, just different. And we are all ok with it.

I also spent some time today with my sister and my niece having a planning party for this awesome businesses we are creating. We couldn't imagine calling it a meeting. What we are creating is way more fun than that. It was a delightful experience to recognize that we truly are the creators and have the power to build something awesome. We know that as we build it, people will come from all over just to be a part of something so amazing. It is a very important time of transition for me to progress from being a part time income earner to completely relying on myself. It is so exciting to me to be able to start using the gifts and talents I have been given to create a source of income in a way that I love. Our business will not only be a source of income, it will also be so beneficial as a source of healing to all those who are seeking. We came up with an awesome mission statement: Our mission is to create a healing place where emotional, physical, spiritual, and temporal health can be achieved effortlessly and easily for all who seek.

The 3 of us are in the process of becoming certified to teach Carol Tuttle's Dressing Your Truth system. (http://dressingyourtruth.com/). Learning this information totally changed my life. I am so thrilled to soon be able to teach it to others. Each of us are also focusing on different aspects of learning the healer's arts so that we can meet individual needs. My main focus is to help people easily and effortlessly overcome addictions. We do not know all the details yet, but what we do know is that we will be guided to know how to take each next step. We also know that we will attract like minded people to work with us who can add to the synergy of what we are creating as well as those who can take care of all the details so that we can stay balanced and focused as we build this new amazing business.

It seems totally appropriate to me to be going through this transition phase in December. Last January as I was just beginning to learn about the power and responsibility I had in creating my own reality, I wrote out my intentions for 2006. I had no idea when I wrote these intentions how powerful this list would become. Every single thing that I put on my list became a reality including how much I now weigh. What seemed like an impossibility to me as I wrote down what my goal weight was is now a fact. Once I put it down as my intention, I did not focus on losing weight. My focus was on being healthy and strong. And it worked. One of the sweetest compliments I have received was a friend of my sons who has not seen me for a couple of years. He came over to spend some time with Jason after the funeral. When he saw me, he told me he did not even recognize me. Then he told me I looked fantastic. I am not saying this to brag or show off...but for me, who will soon be 50, to have a 21 year old young man so enthusiastically respond to some of the changes I have made in my life, was like music to my ears especially considering it was the day I buried my husband.

The transitions I have made in my life because I allowed myself to be open to the possibility of change are available to anyone who wants something different for themselves. I feel so incredibly blessed in my life to have the tools and talents to be able to share with others. To me, it is just choosing a better way to live.

It seems to me like this is a transition time for the world. People everywhere are seeking for healing. We are preparing for amazing times to come. The darkness is getting darker, but only in direct opposition to the light that is getting brighter and brighter.

The night before Jeff totally lost the ability to be able to communicate, I asked him to share his testimony with me so that it could be shared at his funeral. His testimony was about the reality of Jesus Christ. He lives. He love us. He is the light of the world and that light is getting brighter. Jeff was anxious to be a part of the preparations that are taking place in the Spirit realm for the return of the Savior. He has now transitioned to be in that position. I am excited for him.

I know that the things I am learning and teaching are also in preparation for that same event. It is a time of healing for the world. There is more light, knowledge, and understanding now than has ever been here before. Just like communication and transportation have been speeded up because of new technology, so too has healing. What once took years to be able to heal from, now can be accomplished easily and effortlessly. I am a witness of the power and truthfulness of the tools available for healing. I believe that it is our responsibility to seek for these things so that we can teach the children how to be strong and choose the light. The only way they will do so is if we show them by our example that joy is possible in spite of continuing trials and that at any given moment we can choose how to respond to the things going on around us rather than just reacting by default mode and choosing the same dysfunctional behaviors over and over and over again.

It is a time of transition for us all. I believe it is the most awesome time ever to be alive on the earth...and for those who have left the earth too. We are more connected than ever because we are working towards the same goal.

Jeff had a very favorite Christmas song. It was one that Jimmy Osmond sang on the Osmond Christmas family album back in the 70's. It was one of only 2 songs that Jeff ever sang to his children. It seems totally appropriate to quote the words now.

I wonder when he comes again, will herald angels sing
Will earth be white with crystal snow, or will the world know spring
I wonder if one star will shine far brighter than the rest
Will daylight stay the whole night through, Will songbirds leave their nests
I'm sure he'll call his little ones together round his knee
Because he said in day's gone by, suffer them to come to me

I wonder when he comes again, will I be ready there
To look upon his loving face and kneel with him in prayer
Each day I'll try to do his will and let my light so shine
That other seeing me may seek for greater light divine
Then when that blessed day is here, he'll love me and he'll say
You've served me well my little child, come into my arms to stay

Jeff has transitioned into that realm. He did serve his Savior well while in his physical body. I am quite certain he is continuing with that same path now with his spirit body. I too am in transition. I too want to be able to serve my Savior well by sharing his light and love with all who seek. His arms are always open. His invitation is to all. What a better time than this season to say yes to that invitation and allow a transtition to take place in our hearts. I think it truly is time for us to have joy in the world and for the earth to receive it's king. Right now, it is up to each of us to prepare room in our hearts. It is the best transition any of us can make. Then we can spread the joy to others and light up the world one heart at a time. This is my Christmas wish.

Chris